If you are new to this story this is the short version: My
mom has been home and receiving hospice care for the last 10 days or so, with
her various children staying with her.
Here are the links to part 1,
part
2 and part
3.
It is Thursday morning and I have been back with her since
Tuesday evening. She is gradually
declining. Today is a better day,
although that is a very relative term in these circumstances. Yesterday she slept virtually the entire
day. Today she is awake and we are
having some conversation fragments. They
are fragments because she is driving the conversation, so to speak. We talk when she wants to, about what she
wants to, changing topics as she wants to.
So my reflections this morning have a bit of a random feel to them.
I have been following a one-year Bible reading plan and
today’s section was Ecclesiastes
7 and 8. As I was preparing to read
I was hoping that God would have something that would speak clearly to me this
morning, something that would give me just what I needed to hear. I wasn’t sure
what I needed to hear, but my inner voice was skeptical that it would be in
Ecclesiastes. I figured that after
reading the assigned text I would turn to read something more familiar and
dearer to my heart. But God is a God of
surprises and this morning’s surprise took a bit of time to unfold.
The first past was Ecclesiastes 7:26:
“And
I find something more bitter than death; the woman whose heart is snares and
nets, and whose hands are fetters. He
who pleases God escapes her, but the sinner is taken by her.”
That verse reminded me of being a sinner and the tenacious
grasp of sin in my life. And while this
verse suggests that resisting the allure of the things that draw me away from
God is my responsibility, the fuller message of the Bible is that God has
already won the battle. The redemption
any Christian receives is not through their own effort but only through the
work of Jesus on their behalf. That is
truly Good News!
Which led to another random thought. As I was looking at some things online I came
across a link to this blog
post on the Gospel Coalition website.
After scrolling through the pictures of grooms as they get a glimpse of
their bride on their wedding day there are a few well-written paragraphs about
the wedding of the Bride and Groom in heaven, the wedding day that the best in
earthly weddings point towards. Jared Wilson writes:
“For Christ and his
Bride will have this moment of rapturous wedding joy for all eternity. The Lamb
will receive the reward of his suffering, and of his love — the infinite
worshipful devotion of his spotless bride.”
As I sit with my mom the words of Ecclesiastes and Wilson connect. I, and all Christians, will
continue to wrestle with sin, seeking the forgiveness of a Lord who is infinitely
rich in mercy, and trusting in his unfailing promises.
And I wrestle knowing that the best days lie ahead. The battle has been won and the eternal union
that Christians will know with Him will be glorious in ways that we can barely
imagine. Indeed, the very best is yet to
come.
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